Two.

Once again, when you least expect it something good happens. We haven’t talked in years, and now two years later you admit you had a crush on me. And I thought no one liked me. We spent hours and hours in the library, and I never say the signs. Wow. It feels good to know, thank you so much for telling me. It changed my whole day.

Don’t hang up on me. I get mad.

Something feels different. But I can’t put my finger on it. It feels like something just has clicked, and now it’s different. I still don’t know what I am doing wrong and how I can change it.
All I know now, is that I’m worth something more.

People that I haven’t talked to in so may years keep on popping up. It’s so much fun. But let’s keep in touch this time. Please.

Again I feel different. Like something has changed in me. And maybe it is me. Do I need a change?

However, you always make me smile.


Jag kan knappt tro på att det händer.

Away.

It’s sad. It’s sad that you don’t even see what it is that you’re doing wrong. And still, you are doing right in front of my eyes.
It’s sad. That you are going away. I will miss you, a lot.
It’s sad. That we don’t talk no more. I miss you.
It’s sad. That I can’t trust you. Please show me.

I am so grateful to you girls; we have so much fun whenever we are together! It makes me so happy.

You and me baby. Sunday afternoon.

Skräckfilm och sen balkongen. Mer behövs inte. Verkligen inte.


Take me away.

Mom.

The family came home today. I missed them, I really did. Mom and I got five minutes, and somehow that’s all I needed. I just realised how lucky I am to have a mom, and just my mom. Five minutes can change soo much.

Can 4 seconds?

You make me happy, you make me smile and you make me feel special. Wow. How can you do that?

Still wondering and still thinking. I need to find my next direction. I need a new plan and I need to find out where I’m going. If there’s a will, there usually is a way. And I will find the way.

I needed our lunch. Everyday I get more and more amazed of how much you mean to me. Everyday I realise that you are a friend I really need.

Good day today. Really. A good day.


Every little thing is gonna be alright.

Wish.

The day so far has been ok. Been going all over town just to please everyone, it’s hard. However, I can only do it for you. When you’re not around, I take your place and I do everything that you are supposed to do. Take your responsibility, one day I will not be around.

How come can’t read your mind? Everything would have been so much easier. Just tell me, show me or just, please, pick up the phone!!

I wish I could do more. I wish I could be at more places at once. But there only is one of me, and all I can do is my best. Witch I try to do.
I wish I could make you understand; make you feel what I feel. But its not easy, and you are not giving me a chance.

I miss you. We need a catch up soon baby.

Thanks for the laughter today. I needed it.

Her feelings she hides.

Her dreams she can't find.

She's losing her mind.

She's fallen behind.

She can't find her place.

She's losing her faith.

She's fallen from grace.

She's all over the place.

So.

Sometimes you feel so alone. You feel like you can’t do anything right. Sometimes all you can do is to go with the flow. But what happens when you are tired of the flow? When you want to go your own way?
I’m sick of being the cute girl that always is around and never does anything scary. I’m sick of being the one everyone runs to when they hit problems, who do I run to? Who do I call when I just want someone to breath on the other line? Someone to say that I’m good enough, someone to say that they love me.

I think I might want to cry. But I don’t know why. Somehow over time I have lost track. I no longer know where I’m going and why. I don’t know in which direction I’m going or where I’m headed. It feels like I’m walking a road and I can’t see where it stops. We always talk about how we should live for today. But what happens when I want to live for tomorrow?

Does someone know the real me? Or am I all alone? I whish I knew what you where thinking. I have no clue at all.

You should have been perfect. Perfect for me. But you scared me of with marriage. I’m still not ready for it.

Just give it all you got,
It’s not the end.
Life shouldn’t be same without you. You give me so much. So much.

You called at the right moment. So right.

It is NOT the end.
MY friend.

Someone.

Summer is here and so is the heat. There have been a few really hot days now, but I like it. Give me more.

Home alone again, watching over the house and the dog. You need to learn how to be alone, someone said to me. Yes, maybe I do. But like someone else said, everything is so much nicer when you are two.
You don’t know who you should listen to, maybe its your inner voice. Listen to that.

I’m coming soon. 12,30. I cant believe that’s its been 2 years. Unbelievable. Never again.

Its ok love, its ok.
Cause we know. We know.



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